Changes in my life and phobias

I fear ducks, having a vehicle accident, birds, having another miscarriage, flying in a plane, Austin running out into the road and so many other things. Many thats you can not control in your life but one thing I know that I am in control of is my weight. I was a cute size 9 or so when I was a Junior in HS and then I do not know what happened my Senior year. I have yo-yo'd so much since then. Before having DS I was down to a size 14 and I don't even want to reveal what size I am now. I am so tired of being fat and me being uncomfortable in my own body taking over my life! After reading This blog post from the great Blair , I decided I needed to put something in writing!! I have always wanted to have sexy pics done of my self to give to DH for his birthday or something and I even have the photographer picked out that will take them for me! But that will not happen anytime with my body looking the way it does now. I have to make a plan. I have to pray for the strength.

SO done!

I am really feeling done with my job today. the new person should be starting soon and then I am FREE!! to be a stay at home momma or find something else!

Weekend recap

WOW what a busy weekend. Time at the ball fields on Saturday with an afternoon of shopping and Panera for dinner! YUM! Easter Sunday with Austin's 1st Easter egg hunt. Which he did very good with and caught on real quick that he needed to pick the eggs up and put them in his basket. Then he thought it was funny to throw the eggs around the yard! Now that was a hoot. The weekend ended and the hubs we to work at 5 am. I always call him as soon as we get up and Austin is eating his breakfast and he tells me that he had forgotten that he had taken this week of vacation. WOOOHOOO Daddy will be home for the week. If defiantly a change to have him home during the day. somewhatnice    We were out on the deck last night and he is terrified of wasp and hornet and he was saying something about a wasp and I then told me " oh yeah, that reminds me" He then starts flipping out asking where it is. LOL o-h  m-y g-o-o-d-n-e-s-s. that was too funny I had seen where there was a nest right by the back door. He finds the bug spray and I am about to walk back inside the house. He looked at me and said " You are not leaving me out here!!!" I love my man so much! =) I will try and post some pics that I took over the weekend tomorrow.

I feel horrible!

I feel like such a bad person for not keeping up with my blog and so many things have changed in just a short time! I used to be a full time momma and work full time. Til the hubs asked me one day when he came by my work if I would please put my two weeks notice in. I toyed with the idea for some time and finally had the nerve to do it. I hated being about from home for such long hours and it was really taking a toll on my relationship with my husband as well. As of right now I am still working at the same job but only working part time til my replacement is hired and trained. Well the first part has already happened now my replacement needs to start working and then be trained for like a month, and then I will not be working. I thought it would be such a change for me with not having " my money" but with making cakes on the side for friends it has really helped out with that. I have not had to " ask " the hubs for money and I am still being the fugal person that I am with grocery shopping and such. I am still managing to pay our cell bill as well. I am def going to make a better effort to keep up with my blog and the happening of my boy!! gosh he is growing way too fast!! He will be 18 months next month! His favorite words are "NO" and "MOMMA" . I love to hear him call for me! He is the sweetest and if you ask for a kiss, he kisses you on throws his hand to his mouth to blow kisses. =) that is it for now.