Fat and Proud

Well not really proud to be overweight but it really gets to me when people bash other people that are overweight. It just makes me want to wish them fat! I know that is not a nice thing when I hate being this way by self but some people really have nerve. After I have this baby my OB has already said that he wants to do some testing to see if I have PSOC and do a blood sugar testing to see if I am borderline diabetic. He has there is a med that can help with my weight loss. I have to live a healthy life for my kids so that they have a good example. I have tried weight watchers many times and had just signed up for a site that was free but works for a lot of people and then I found out I was pregnant and I have not signed on to the site since. but I have managed to lose 5 lbs and I am still at 5lbs less than when I found out I was pregnant and tomorrow I will be 17 weeks. Wow I can not believe how the time is flying by! With DS it did not seem like it went by so fast. I kinda hope it slows down a bit. well I guess I'm going to sign off for the night and try and get to sleep. been sitting in bed for over an hour with the laptop out... I miss the hubs so much. Only 2 more wake ups!!!! =)

Lonely

Laying in bed, eating Sugar Babies. Thinking about the hubs that is thousands of miles away right now and will not be back til late Saturday. This week stinks, well for me it does. He is in Mexico building houses for people that need them badly with a group of people from our church. It seems that just last week he was away at Joplin. But so much different since the only way we can communicate is through Facebook messages and comments. So manly memories of him and I have been on my mind. From first date, to breaking up a few times , to moving out of his house once and thinking it was over for good. My life at once seemed to be upside down. Then it all changed we were back together with in months and planning our wedding. I then found out we were expecting a LO and were not even married yet. And here we are a bit over 2 years married and we are expecting our second child. I NEVER pictured my life being this way. I am a SAHM, selling Pampered Chef on the side and working PT(oncall) for my old job. I feel so fortunate to be able to be at home with our DS. I love our snuggle time in the morning after he eats his breakfast. And this week those tight hugs are much needed with the hubs out of the country! I can not wait to pick him up at the airport! I told him that I will have his favorite brownies with me and maybe even a starbucks coffee. I know DS will be so happy to see him. He has been walking around the house calling out for his Daddy. Its very sweet but bittersweet at the same time. Good news is that our gender ultrasound is set for Aug 18th!! I have a strong feeling his baby is a girl. I would be happy with either sex but I just kinda feel it in my gut.
Well I am going to try to fall asleep and dream that the hubs sends me a message on facebook tonight.